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Haven't logged onto this thing in quite awhile. Nostalgia at its finest. Can't wait to read some of my old posts...and post some new ones of course! More to come soon ;)
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I've definitely been neglecting this thing.

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Dave and I are finally back together, and things truly could not be better. There were things the both of us needed to work on, and realize, on our own. Love isn't always easy. There isn't much more I can say without sounding like I'm placing blame, so I'll just stop. But things are really great. I'm happy.

I was in Michigan for 11 days at Christmas and that was great! I love the snowed, but it did alter plans a little bit here and there, but that's to be expected. My main priority was spending as much time with my mom and family as possible. Dave came up for a few days as well which was soooo nice. He finally got to meet my Dad and everyone on that side of the family which made me extremely happy. We also went to a Pistons game while he was visiting. As always it's very sad to come back because my mom and I are so close, but she'll be visiting me in Atlanta January 30-February 4. I bought her a plane ticket to come down, and tickets to go see John Legend for her Christmas present. I'm sure we'll have a blast while she is here!

I've also been spending some extra time adding a little more to our apartment. Dave finally installed our surround sound over Thanksgiving, and we have our new 52 inch TV all hung up and finished so I wanted to add a little more decor, so that's what I've been doing the past few days! I even rearranged the furniture. I was inspired by all of my recent HGTV watching! It feels even more like our perfect home which is always a good thing.

Work on the other hand has been completely horrible. Our new management is making being happy at work almost impossible. If it wasn't for some of the amazing people that come in to the bar when I'm working and the money I would surely be out of there already. For now I'm going to tough it out. Especially because Dave and I have quite a few things planned vacation-wise for the Spring/Summer. We're planning on going down to Orlando for 4 nights in March to see a couple Braves Spring Training games. The week we want to go they have one against the Mets, and one against the Tigers so that would be awesome! And we would be down there for St. Patrick's Day. Lots of fun. I hope everything works out!

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I wish it would just get cooler out here! I'm so sick of this sticky Summer weather! It gets to a point usually by the time October starts I just refuse to wear Summer clothes anymore and just start wearing sweaters and jeans even if it's like 70 degrees out!

So school has been going really well this semester. It's a bit tiring with my schedule though, but I think I'm managing well. I like it because I have all four of my classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays between 8 and 3:15, but I have to wake up at 5 in order to get ready because I don't have time when I get home before work and then I live so close but it still takes me an hour to get there! Tuesday is by far the longest day of my week. I'm up around 5 and I close the bar down so I don't get home til about 4am! It's craziness! I've already had 2 tests and I've done well on both of them. My math class is actually one of my favorite classes this semester and I hate math! I just have a really great professor.

I'm so freaking excited...my mom is coming here on Thursday! The plane tickets were really cheap and I told her if she wanted to come this month that I'd be more than happy to buy her a plane ticket. She'll be here Thursday a little before 4pm and she doesn't leave until Monday night. We're gonna have a blast this weekend!

I have a bit of homework and studying to do today, especially for my sociology test tomorrow. I also have to run a couple of errands and hopefully be in bed before midnight.

I'm hoping the next few weeks at work are really good money weeks because if they are I may take a flight up to Michigan for a weekend in October. I really want to go to a cider mill!
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Attacks, praise stretch truth at GOP convention By JIM KUHNHENN, Associated Press Writer
Wed Sep 3, 11:48 PM ET

ST. PAUL, Minn. - Alaska Gov. Sarah Palin and her Republican supporters held back little Wednesday as they issued dismissive attacks on Barack Obama and flattering praise on her credentials to be vice president. In some cases, the reproach and the praise stretched the truth.

Some examples:

PALIN: "I have protected the taxpayers by vetoing wasteful spending ... and championed reform to end the abuses of earmark spending by Congress. I told the Congress 'thanks but no thanks' for that Bridge to Nowhere."

THE FACTS: As mayor of Wasilla, Palin hired a lobbyist and traveled to Washington annually to support earmarks for the town totaling $27 million. In her two years as governor, Alaska has requested nearly $750 million in special federal spending, by far the largest per-capita request in the nation. While Palin notes she rejected plans to build a $398 million bridge from Ketchikan to an island with 50 residents and an airport, that opposition came only after the plan was ridiculed nationally as a "bridge to nowhere."

PALIN: "There is much to like and admire about our opponent. But listening to him speak, it's easy to forget that this is a man who has authored two memoirs but not a single major law or reform — not even in the state senate."

THE FACTS: Compared to McCain and his two decades in the Senate, Obama does have a more meager record. But he has worked with Republicans to pass legislation that expanded efforts to intercept illegal shipments of weapons of mass destruction and to help destroy conventional weapons stockpiles. The legislation became law last year. To demean that accomplishment would be to also demean the work of Republican Sen. Richard Lugar of Indiana, a respected foreign policy voice in the Senate. In Illinois, he was the leader on two big, contentious measures in Illinois: studying racial profiling by police and requiring recordings of interrogations in potential death penalty cases. He also successfully co-sponsored major ethics reform legislation.

PALIN: "The Democratic nominee for president supports plans to raise income taxes, raise payroll taxes, raise investment income taxes, raise the death tax, raise business taxes, and increase the tax burden on the American people by hundreds of billions of dollars."

THE FACTS: The Tax Policy Center, a think tank run jointly by the Brookings Institution and the Urban Institute, concluded that Obama's plan would increase after-tax income for middle-income taxpayers by about 5 percent by 2012, or nearly $2,200 annually. McCain's plan, which cuts taxes across all income levels, would raise after tax-income for middle-income taxpayers by 3 percent, the center concluded.

Obama would provide $80 billion in tax breaks, mainly for poor workers and the elderly, including tripling the Earned Income Tax Credit for minimum-wage workers and higher credits for larger families.

He also would raise income taxes, capital gains and dividend taxes on the wealthiest. He would raise payroll taxes on taxpayers with incomes above $250,000, and he would raise corporate taxes. Small businesses that make more than $250,000 a year would see taxes rise.

MCCAIN: "She's been governor of our largest state, in charge of 20 percent of America's energy supply ... She's responsible for 20 percent of the nation's energy supply. I'm entertained by the comparison and I hope we can keep making that comparison that running a political campaign is somehow comparable to being the executive of the largest state in America," he said in an interview with ABC News' Charles Gibson.

THE FACTS: McCain's phrasing exaggerates both claims. Palin is governor of a state that ranks second nationally in crude oil production, but she's no more "responsible" for that resource than President Bush was when he was governor of Texas, another oil-producing state. In fact, her primary power is the ability to tax oil, which she did in concert with the Alaska Legislature. And where Alaska is the largest state in America, McCain could as easily have called it the 47th largest state — by population.

MCCAIN: "She's the commander of the Alaska National Guard. ... She has been in charge, and she has had national security as one of her primary responsibilities," he said on ABC.

THE FACTS: While governors are in charge of their state guard units, that authority ends whenever those units are called to actual military service. When guard units are deployed to Iraq or Afghanistan, for example, they assume those duties under "federal status," which means they report to the Defense Department, not their governors. Alaska's national guard units have a total of about 4,200 personnel, among the smallest of state guard organizations.

FORMER ARKANSAS GOV. MIKE HUCKABEE: Palin "got more votes running for mayor of Wasilla, Alaska than Joe Biden got running for president of the United States."

THE FACTS: A whopper. Palin got 616 votes in the 1996 mayor's election, and got 909 in her 1999 re-election race, for a total of 1,525. Biden dropped out of the race after the Iowa caucuses, but he still got 76,165 votes in 23 states and the District of Columbia where he was on the ballot during the 2008 presidential primaries.

FORMER MASSACHUSETTS GOV. MITT ROMNEY: "We need change, all right — change from a liberal Washington to a conservative Washington! We have a prescription for every American who wants change in Washington — throw out the big-government liberals, and elect John McCain and Sarah Palin."

THE FACTS: A Back-to-the-Future moment. George W. Bush, a conservative Republican, has been president for nearly eight years. And until last year, Republicans controlled Congress. Only since January 2007 have Democrats have been in charge of the House and Senate.

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So what is new?

Atlanta has a WNBA team now. The Atlanta Dream, and I tried out for their dance team last Sunday...and made the finals!!! I've always wanted to try out for the Hawks, but it's just so time consuming. If I make this team it will fit a lot better into my schedule. The finals are tomorrow night. As soon as we're done watching the Braves game we're going to head over to the gym so I can practice in one of the studios.

My grandma's house is closing in a week or so. While it will be nice to have that money to do all the things I need/want to do with it, it will be sad to lose that home. I contemplated trying to make it up to Michigan to see it once more, but I decided against it. I want to remember it how it was before my grandmother passed away. All the time I spent there and all the warm happy memories I have with my grandma. I just want to retain all the good memories I can from that home.

Dave and I are still searching for a house. We'll hoepfully be all moved in before my 21st Birthday!!! I'm soooo looking forward to this Summer and all of the fun things we're doing.

Dave is buying a canoe in the next couple of weeks. I'm sooooo excited. We live so close to the river and it just makes sense. I can't wait to spend a ton of time doing that this Summer.

All in all things are going good in my life. The only thing I would change is my job. I freaking loathe it, but it just makes sense to stay there through Summer. Not only are we moving, but my birthday is also this Summer, we're going on like 3 or 4 vacations, and several other things. I definitely don't want to get a new job and have to take off a million days so let's just see if I can suffer through this job all Summer...

The NBA playoffs start this weekend!!! I'm sooooooooo excited. Not only are my main guys(The Pistons) freaking awesome and better make it to the finals, but my Hawks have made it to the playoffs as well! I'm so proud of them! YAY!
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Haven't updated on here in forever.

What's new???

Well my grandmother's house is finally in the process of being sold. There's about 20 days until closing. I try not to think about it too much because I just don't want to jinx anything. I need that money badly and I just can't wait for it to happen.

Dave and I have been busy looking at houses. Even though the lease on my apartment doesn't go up until July 31 we're going to try and move before my 21st Birthday on June 23. I have so many things going on in the next few months it is unreal.

One major thing I'm definitely doing this Summer is going on a cruise. I promised Dave that we'd go on a cruise after my grandmother's house sold so we're definitely doing that. I need a vacation. I've already worked 45 hours this week and I still have to work tomorrow and Sunday.

This coming up week I plan on taking it easy. I'm only working 4 shifts at the bar and in my down time I plan on catching up on much needed sleep and getting a whole list of things I have done.

It looks like the Hawks are most likely going to the playoffs this year unless they majorly fuck something up so that'll be exciting. I'm definitely going to some of those games.

It feels go to finally update...
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The New Year has been good thus far.

It has snowed 2 times here. I cannot believe it! It wasn't like it was a ton, but it did snow for a while and even stuck a little bit. It's back in the 60's this week though, so I don't think any more snow will be happening any time soon.

Unfortunately I'm not in school this semester. It wasn't my decision, but I had some scheduling conflicts. I think this will be for the better though. Dave and I are getting our first house together this Summer and we've already begun slowly looking. Plus, it was pretty stressful being in school full time and having the responsibility of paying like $2000 in bills each month. My plan is just to use the extra time I have off this semester to do and see many of the things I've been putting off because I didn't have time. I'll be back in school this Summer. Things are good.

February should be a fun month. Dave and I are going to a Superbowl party next Sunday. The day after I think we're going to the Hawks vs. 76ers game. February 12th this Pistons are here again and we're going to be in the first row behind the Pistons bench! On Valentine's Day Dave and I are driving up to the Blue Ridge Mountains to stay at a resort there overnight. I'm so excited! I've never really been to North Georgia and we'll be spending the whole day doing things and then having a romantic meal at night. I'm excited!

I'm trying to plan a trip to Michigan hopefully for March. I was trying to go in February, but I was having trouble getting ahold of Amanda to find out what dates she'd be available since I'll be staying with her on my next trip up, so now I'm aiming for March. I really want to make it up! I miss everyone so much!

When Dave gets home from work tonight we're going to go to Fudruckers for dinner, and then we're going to see Untraceable. I hope it's good!

Until next time...
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I freaking hate my math class. Like really freaking hate it. Every morning when I walk in there I feel like I'm entering a dark dungeon with no way out. It's absolutely horrible. I can't wait until I'm done taking math for good. That's the stupidest subject ever. When will I ever need to know 95% of that shit?

22 days until my mommy comes to visit me!!! I can't wait. I'm already stressing though about all of the stuff I have to pay for/buy but I'm trying not to get myself too worked up seeing I do still have 22 days and I usually always freak out over nothing.

I think the next 2 months are going to be really fun. Not only do I love the holidays as is, but I have a lot of other fun things going on like my mom's visit, the pistons game, Dave's birthday, and Dave just bought me tickets to the Robin Thicke concert!!! I'm so excited I can hardly stand it.

Bartending has been so much fun. I'm really glad I was given this opportunity to do it. It really makes time go by so much faster and I have more of a chance to talk to my customers and hang out and the money is better. It's a nice change up. I think it's something I really needed.

Besides working a crap ton this weekend I also have to volunteer 4 hours tomorrow to try to knock my stpid community service for the stupid rear ending incident that happened in March. I might pick up a shift tomorrow night at the bar too. I could really use the money and Dave work's until like 9 anyways so there's nothing I would really be doing at that time anyways. I probably wouldn't get home til like 10 or 11 though and I have to bartend during the day on Saturday so that's the only reason I may not do it because I do need my sleep.

I think Saturday night Dave and I are gonna do a little dinner/movie night. It'll be nice to do that because we really haven't done anything like that in a few weeks. I really want to see Dan in Real Life so I think that's what we're going to go see.

My sociology class was cancelled for today which is thrilling because I'll be able to go home after my next class and have a little extra time before I have to go to work. I'm bartending tonight though so I know it at least won't be a drag.

Off to english...
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I feel like I have so much to talk about, but I guess I don't know how to get it all out in writing.

Dave has been in Jersey on business since Sunday. I have to pick him up from the airport tonight. While driving to the airport on Sunday I was surprised to find that there is a road in College Park named Bobby Brown Pkwy. Reason #19817239827 why living here is funny.

Since Dave has been gone I haven't done much. Worked a little. I'm at school right now. I hung out with my friend Chase on Sunday night and last night. Sunday we watched The Departed at his house. Good movie by the way. Last night he came over for dinner. I also went shopping with my friend Kristan yesterday. Boring stuff.

I started bartending at the sports bar I work at a couple of weeks ago. It's been very very fun. Especially since I'm the only girl bartender. It's great. It's tough to get used to though because we have 100 beers on draft and like 296 bottles so it takes a while to get used to where everything is on the wall or in the beer cooler. Craziness.

This morning I was in a really big hurry because I overslept and my first class was math and we were having a test today so I didn't have time to make myself a sandwhich and just grabbed a granola bar and diet coke which surely will not be enough to hold me over until school is over at 3:15. I was thinking about leaving after my next class, english, but then I looked at the schedule online for my social problems class and we're talking about an interesting topic today so I really don't want to miss. I'm going to be starrrvvvviininnggg.

I took off work tonight so that I'd be able to pick Dave up when his flight got in. This means I'll have lots of time to catch up on all of my TiVo-ed Dr. Phil, Oprah, and Tyra...YES!

I have a lot of things going on in the next couple of months. After I'm done paying all of my early november bills such as Rent, Car Insurance, Cell Phone and Cable I'm going to be paying off my credit card and hopefully paying more money towards my furniture. After I pay off my credit card I'm going to ask if they'll give me an increase in my limit. I never want anything too high, but mine right now is pretty low and I'd like it a little bit higher. I have a lot of things to buy though. The Pistons are here on December 4th and when they come I always buy seats directly behind their bench row AA. I'll prob end up spending about $250-$275 on them. I also have to buy Thrashers tickets because I told my mom Dave and I would take her and her bf to a game while they're here. The rest of the money I make will be going towards what we do because when my mom comes here I always take care of everything we do. Dave's birthday is coming up in December too and the present I want to get him is kind of expensive. I really hope it gets marked down the day after Thanksgiving. That's what I'm counting on. I'm really excited for this year because the Pistons are going to be here twice. Last year they were only here once.

So last Friday Dave and I went to Six Flags over Georgia for their Fright Night stuff. It was pretty lame. We probably won't ever do it again. We only got to ride 4 coasters and it wasn't even that scary, plus the haunted house cost extra. Rip off.

My grandma's house right now is in the process of being sold. It's really sad. I wish it could stay in the family, but I know that's not a possibility. It's bittersweet. I'm happy to get the inheritance because I can do a lot with it and it'll really help me, but at the same time it's sad. I probably will never see it again. Which may be better. I want to remember it how it was. I still really haven't gotten over my grandma's passing. I don't think I'll ever get over it. Right after it happened and I came back to Georgia it was really hard for me to move on with me life. Every second of every day was spent thinking about her and hoping she knew how much I loved her. Every moment there was some landmark...this time last week my grandmother was still alive...this time two weeks ago...and so on. But soon I stopped thinking about that so much and it became slightly easier to live in a world where my grandmother wasn't a part of it. It's still hard for me though. I hate seeing old people at all. There are certain songs I can't hear. And certain things I can't think about in general. I have a lot dreams about her. Usually in them she is alive and I'm always with her in them. It's hard for me. It's even harder to verbalize my emotions. It'd probably help me if I actually talked to someone about it, but I hate revealing my emotions like that. I'd talk to Dave about it, but the last time I was upset about it it was probably June and I was crying in my bed. Dave asked what was wrong and I said thinking about my grandma and it just made me sad. He was so annoyed by my crying that he actually slept on the couch. Not really someone I want to talk to about it. He doesn't understand. No one does.
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I really hate this paper I'm supposed to be writing for a class that starts in 13 minutes. Really. It's only the 1st draft and we're only doing peer reviews so no big deal, but I really don't like writing this type of paper. I did soo soo soooooo good on my last one, and now I'm just stuck. Blah.
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